I've told almost everyone I know about the message my dad gave me – after he died. See, I had a dream about my dad about 6 months after he died. I remember in the dream that we were sitting in a restaurant, talking. At some time in the conversation, he looked at me and said "Don't hold onto anger and resentment. It doesn't do you any good."
I have to tell you, dad, that's a really hard promise to keep right now. I mean, I'm trying really hard, but I have these resentments that keep popping up just when I think I've lost them. I'm probably better off right now not talking with Tom. I imagine our conversation would be terse, and if it went on for more than a minute or so, my resentments against what he did would show up and take over the conversation.
I know I have every right to be angry after what happened. But I need to find a way to get rid of that anger in a healthy way. So far, I haven't found the solution. But I'm still working on it.
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