Happy

I have becoming aware recently of a new, or at least rare emotion that I have been experiencing lately. I am happy! The best thing about this happiness? It's not coming from some outside source (a relationship, a lottery win, etc.). No, it's coming from inside, this inner sense of serenity that comes from the work that I have been doing.

I know that it is real, because my life is not at a place that could remotely be described as perfect. I still have the old furniture, the financial issues, the house (with all its inherent problems) to take care of. But I am taking them on, one at a time, working not to feel overwhelmed. And working on these things without the assistance of a relationship with someone else has been tough, but I think part of this sense of happiness comes from the feeling of accomplishment of doing this without using someone else as a crutch.

That's not to say I'm not asking for help. Boy, have I learned that lesson! I know when to ask for help now. I am more aware of my resources now.

I also know that I will be, soon, surrounded by others who will be supporting me emotionally. That's the kind of support I can always use!