Healing

I have been reading more inspirational literature before I go to sleep, just to help me as I try to become a better person. I read several pieces from the book last night, but two seemed as if they had been written specifically for me, right now

The first was about feeling free to be yourself; the second was about healing from being betrayed. I read the first and agreed with everything I read there. I had been becoming someone I really wasn't, just to please someone else. I have noticed in the past few weeks that I am doing more and more of what I want to do and am being more comfortable with who I am, instead of straining to be the person someone would have wanted me to be. Granted, I did pick up some good habits from this relationship. For example, I make the bed right away in the morning instead of waiting, and I do pick up more (although right now, things are a bit scattered after my busy day yesterday, but I am okay with this, too).

The healing from betrayal really caught me by surprise, though. It was an acknowledgement that sometimes we are betrayed and hurt by the people we least expect it from. I think of it this way: it's as if someone who is normally responsible has taken this priceless and precious artifact that is our heart, and has carelessly handled it, breaking it in the process. It wasn't that they set out to do this, but a bit more care could have been used when handling this artifact. Now it is broken, and it is up to me to get past this careless move and heal.

What really resonated with me was the part that said, in effect, that sometimes we have not finished healing from past betrayals and hurts before taking on a new one, and we need to fully heal the breaks in our heart to move on. This was the best piece of inspirational advice that I could receive, and it is advice that I will take to heart – to my broken, but healing heart.