I heard the phone ringing early today – too early to be one of my creditors trying to collect money. I got up quickly because I realized it must be the plumber who I had called yesterday evening, shortly after the gas company shut my gas off because of a leak, and informed me I needed a plumber to fix a pipe.
This was just one more thing for me, and I wondered how much more crap I could take. Considering all that I've gone through in the past month (see Is This a Test?), I don't think there's much more that I can deal with. But here I am, dealing with one more problem. I guess that's what life is all about, right? Dealing with one problem after another, and only the strong survive.
Last night I barely slept, thinking and worrying about everything that I have absolutely no control over. Well, okay, I have taken control of a few things. I worked with the college to get my payments on a more regular schedule. I got the bank to agree to wait just a bit more for my mortgage payment, and felt better knowing that they were willing to talk to me if I still had a problem paying.
Yes, I know people have it much worse than I do. There are people who are losing or have lost their homes because of unpaid medical bills. There are people dealing with family members who have died. There is so much more for some people, and I gain strength knowing that they have survived much more than what I am dealing with right now.
And I know it is just one day, and just one event, and even though it seems as if this is endless, I realize that this too, will pass, and one day I will look back at all this and realize how strong I was. I hope it will be something I will be proud of; how I survived and kept going, instead of giving in.
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