I think the one thing I had wanted to tell the last person I was with was that I don't believe in shaming someone, no matter what they have gone through. I have been with people who have been through a lot, and I was impressed - and never embarrassed - by all they have been through. I've been through enough myself. I have no place judging others.
But I have been beating myself up for falling so quickly for this person. And yet, I realize, I needed that at that time.I can't really speak for him, but I can only guess that he did, too. I don't think there is any shame in wanting to open myself to caring, to love, even if it only lasted a few short weeks. I had not trusted anyone for months (for years, actually) and it was nice to be in a place where I felt comfortable. I wanted to know I could be loved, and I feel that I was, if even for that short period of time.
Relationships can last several hours, several years, or several decades. I still see this as a loving relationship that I needed at that time. There's no shame in that.
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