Cold vs. Caring

I think what shocked and hurt me the most about the email that I got, today telling me that we did not have a good "match" was the coldness of the tone of the email. It was almost clinical in manner; so much different than the ones I had written to other people when things weren't working out for us, and the exact opposite of what I had received in communication from this man before. I read it and wondered how this could come about, and what did the hundreds of emails and dozens of phone calls, all warm and fuzzy in tone actually mean in relation to this? What was real? What was a lie?

Fortunately, I had the sense to reach out to someone who has been there for me for over a year now. Why aren't we together?Well, we are separated by a little over 100 miles, and he is still working through issues from his last marriage.

But we have been there for each other, and when I told him about how much I was hurting from the ending of the last two relationships, and asked him why this happened, he said something that put it in perspective for me: he said that we (he and I) just care. He and I have talked to each other, and listened to each other, and have been there for each other, even though the miles and our situations have separated us.

Perhaps things do happen for a reason. I told him I would wait for things to work out. I would rather wait than put myself through more pain, especially if it means waiting for him. I'm glad to wait and see.