I talked the other day about being in stasis. Since that time, I feel as if I have allowed my life to swing wildly out of control, a pendulum far off from center. I know this is a part of life, that we go through times when we are at center, which is calm, but can be boring.
Which is how we get into the pendulum swinging stage. This is not bad in itself. Life needs a little shaking up sometimes, which is what I figured I was getting - just a little shake.
It seems I got more than a little, and now I am trying to put on the brakes, take it easy. I understand what might have brought it on. Monday is my birthday; birthdays always cause me to go a little overboard, for some reason. Perhaps it is that fear of mortality, causing me to want to try different things, taking on a "life is short"attitude.
Couple the birthday with my upcoming procedure which is really stirring up concerns about the shortness of life, and suddenly I am doing things I would never ordinarily consider.
So I am picking up the pieces, feeling as if I am cleaning up after a wild party. I'm no teenager, though,and maybe it's about time I was a bit more responsible.
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