The Six Month Shuffle

Right now, I am almost at the six month mark in the relationship, and I can see that we are doing the six month shuffle, meaning things feel as if they are going two steps forward and one step back. We had been making great progress, but that was just the beginning. Now, we are at the point where we (well, I) start to question things, wondering if this is getting serious or is it just one of those things, as the song says.

I think women do this instinctively, wondering what is going on, how he feels overall, is what we have worth it. I wish that I could just leave it and not ask questions, not wonder. But then, that would mean what we had would just stagnate, not moving forward but just existing.

I think I may have been okay with that in the past, but now that I have learned so much about me, and also because I have gotten older and begun to realize that life is too short, I don't feel I want to do that any more. I want to be in a relationship where I mean something to someone. I want to know that.

Just existing is not enough anymore. I want to thrive.