About a month ago, I started having dreams about men (no, nothing dirty!) I would dream there was someone I would run into, and then we'd talk, and then at the end of the dream I was waiting for him, knowing he was just going away for a minute, and would be right back.
I don't remember who it was who told me in one of these dreams is that I will be fine this time; all I needed to do was learn to let him lead (like dancing). That is a hard thing for me to do, which is why I am a lousy ballroom dancer. I knew enough in this dream to say, "I don't think I am ready to trust someone enough right now. I can't until I can trust."
It was not long after the last dream that I feel I began to be tested in that area (i.e., my trust issues). And, I have to say, I've been doing pretty well. Yes, I do panic a bit at first, and fight the instinct to control the situation. But the more I have been letting go, the better I have been feeling.
I am still being tested, and feel I am more willing to let go, give up my control, and allow someone else to take the lead. Maybe I'll have more to report on that soon ;)
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