It's a Great Day

I have lived in fear for a good part of my past, as I think I have noted here. One of the best things to happen to me, though, was to practically lose everything.Once that happened, then I was able to do two things;

1. I got things done that would have scared me in the past (working with the IRS on my taxes, for one thing!)
2. I took (healthy) risks.

The first allowed me to take charge of things in my life that I had been putting off. I will say that I haven't done everything perfectly, but I continue to learn from my mistakes and move on.

The second allowed me to do everything from try new foods to consider options that I would have never considered before. I have submitted plays to direct, looked into applying for creative grants and am preparing to get a passport so that I have an excuse to travel the world. I have also, as noted here, begun dating in earnest, and now I am seeing men in a different light. I am making definite choices instead of having the choices made for me; I've been willing to walk away from something that is not working/not right; and, most importantly, look at someone for who they are on the inside. This last has helped me to see that there are, indeed, some diamonds in the rough out there!

I feel better today because of this, because letting go of fear is a great thing. It doesn't go away all at once, and I still get caught up in it occasionally, but I can tell it no longer dominates my life.