Right now, I should be sipping a cup of coffee (or, possibly, chai) and enjoying the conversation and attention of someone of the opposite sex, with whom I have been sharing flirty banter online for the past week and a half. Yes, this is a different person than the one I have been talking about. Let's call the other one GC1 (for "Gentleman Caller 1 - a polite term stolen from Tennessee Williams). That's makes the one I was to be with tonight GC2.
Here's the lowdown; several weeks back, I started chatting with GC1. We had a free and easy way of talking, and I liked his lengthy posts in response to my own. We talked about our jobs, life, music, and cooking (something we both had in common.) It seemed that we would definitely meet each other in short order. However, as it always does, life intervened. He was supposed to help a friend out with an issue. That was a couple weeks ago. He, suddenly, however, stopped communicating.I gave him a few days, but then wrote to see what was going on. He said he had a family emergency and would let me know. My response - uh oh. I waited for the other shoe to fall; to hear that he was in a terrible place, and would I please send money?
But that didn't happen. It actually did turn out that someone close to him had died. So, after this point, he sort of dropped off the radar screen for about a week.
Which was when G2 showed up. You see, I had no idea what was going to happen with G1, so, well, I decided conversation with G2 would be okay, right? And we hit it off right away. We had a great deal in common, and had an ease in our conversation.
And then - yup - G1 showed back up. And we talked again, and decided we would meet the first weekend in February. But I still felt a connection to G2, so I pushed for a "rendezvous' that would be earlier than my one with G2,because I needed to know if we both felt the same way, and if he was the one I should be with.
Sounds easy enough, right? And if I were sipping that coffee right now with G2, I think all my questions would be answered. However, G2 was not able to make it tonight; he had an accident that is keeping him home. And, now, they are forecasting a snowstorm for tomorrow (when we said we would get together). It can't be easy, can it?
So, what are all these signs from the universe telling me? Which do I choose? Or will the choice be made?
I keep thinking of what a friend of mine said when his life was suddenly upended; "things are up in the air and I am not happy." Exactly how I feel right now.
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