Why Trust Now?

I realized I was getting into one of those ethical decision places, and I needed to make a decision about the potential of the relationships I was, or could be, in. I wanted to ask my best friend, but I knew she wouldn't be a good person to go to, as she didn't even want me to be dating. My son was sick of hearing about my dating life, and, besides, because he was my son, talking about who I should choose was just sort of...ewww.

So, late at night I tossed and turned and thought about this. I had been dating one person (2 dates, and many days in between where conversation was sparse.) But I have also been communicating with someone, receiving long, in-depth emails several times a day. Yet, this relationship is so new; I felt as if I knew him, but still haven't met him.

I had a request for a date for today from the first one; a movie that I didn't want to see, but would see just to have a chance for us to get out and get together (our last date was 2 weeks ago.) But going out with him would be strange, knowing, as I did, that there was someone else who recently caught my attention.

The second guy was questionable for me when I first read the information - intelligent,nice,well spoken and attractive. Must be a fake, right? And yet, his emails were very specific in information about why he lived where he did,where he used to live, why he moved, etc. Anyone who was planning on scamming me would not be that specific.

And our conversations are very real. I had been through the whole scamming experience before, so I now know what it is like to get emails that seem sort of romantic, but still not connected to the conversation. I think I have learned.

So, I am trusting my judgement and letting this go where it is meant to go. There is this part of me that wants to know right now, but right now is not when I am supposed to know. This is where I make the decision and decide to go with the unknown, and trust my instinct. It may work out; it may not.

But it's about time that I allowed myself to trust.