I spent so much time in relationships tying myself up into knots, trying to make myself what I thought the other person wanted me to be.I would bite my tongue, rather than saying what I really wanted to say, in case it might cause them consternation which would make them want to leave.
And now? Now I am free of that concern. I don't know when it happened, but I realized that I started pushing the boundaries. I realized that if I pushed the boundaries to the point of what I was actually considering, and if he was not considering the same thing, then I was better off. Why would I want to be with someone who didn't want what I wanted, who wasn't thinking the same way as I did?
And you know what? The more I pushed, the more I got responses that were in line with how I felt. Hmmm...this is different, I thought! Maybe we actually think the same way? But how can that be happening- it has never happened before?
So,maybe I am where I supposed to be, with someone who thinks like me. Only time will tell.
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