This has been a tough year, although I can see how much I have grown in just 12 months' time. A year ago, I was still trying to end a long term relationship. Here I am a year later, and I have not only fully let go, but I have accepted that he has moved on (something I kept hoping for, but you never know exactly how you will react until it actually happens.)
As the year comes to a close, I am also working up the courage to let go to my companion of the past 12+ years; my dog, Shep. He was doing good until this fall, when his health suddenly went bad. I have taken him to the vet more in the past 2 months than I have in the past 3 years, and while it has taken quite a hit on my bank account, I don't regret it in the least.
He has lost interest in food, and has had a very hard time getting around. I am finally accepting the fact that I may need to say goodbye to him in the few short days before the year ends. Yes, I have been crying each time I take him in, but I realize the tears are for myself. I know that he will be happier once he gets to that point where he is past the pain.
Letting go is a bitch, but it is a necessary part of life. This is my lesson for 2014. I will need to see what 2015 will bring.
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