And What Would That Be Like?

My cat and dog have claimed their spaces on my bed for the day. They have found their most comfortable place on my comforter, and there they will stay, I imagine, until dinner time, when they know they will be fed.

How does that feel, to know that you can relax and not have to worry about anything, and everything will be taken care of? It feels as if it has been years since I've been able to experience that on a long term basis (as in, longer than a 3-4 day vacation).

But I know others who can go through life this way, and I wonder to myself: what would that be like? A friend from work and I were talking about someone who lived in a nice house, and didn't have to work (except for a few years when she was in her 20's). Neither of us knew what that felt like. With the exception of the short break (10 weeks) that I was allowed to take when my son was born, I've been working without a a break pretty much since my late teens. My friend said she had been doing the same. We've had to. Even in marriages, we needed to work to pay the bills.

And part of me thinks that even if I were given the chance to relax this way, I couldn't. Maybe for a few days, or a week or so, but over time I would get bored and would need to find some way to keep myself occupied.

Maybe I would. But I wouldn't mind seeing what it would be like, for once, to have someone else take care of me and pay the bills, and I could relax and not have to stay awake every night worry how it was all going to get done. Really - what would that be like?