Strange things have been happening in my life over the past week, and I am taking everything in and thinking about it. I have now made connections to several people, and, while the new connection has been exciting (isn't everything shiny and new that more exciting?), the old, slower one seems more...me.
I don't know where either of these is going. I have a feeling the new, shiny one will disappear as quickly as he appeared, and, although I will probably always wonder what might have been, I can't help thinking that this is not a right fit for me. Too much excitement for me.I am beginning to think I prefer the other that doesn't come with the all the bells and whistles, but seems to show up just when I need him to.
And that's the weirdest thing. When the new, shiny one appeared, the other disappeared for a while. Unusual, because he had been there, pretty steadily, no matter how much (or how little) I tried to connect. But for no apparent reason, he was just seemed to disappear. And yet, when the new, shiny one started to disappoint, the old, steadfast one reappeared, just when I needed him, with things to cheer me up. This was not planned; no expectations were conveyed or expressed. It just happened.
So, then. Hmmmm....perhaps I should be open to what this could potentially mean for me and about me. And, maybe, about how I should be living my life.
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