When I started writing this blog/journal, it was July and hot. I remember sweltering in the heat as I waited for the bus each day. I felt we were lucky when the bus would actually make it all the way without breaking down because of the heat.
Now it is winter and bitter cold. We've had snow all weekend – the whole landscape has been covered with at least a foot of snow. I spent a good part of this weekend cleaning off the driveway and trying to just stay warm!
Amazing how things change in the course of a few months. In the summer, I thought I would never cool down enough to be comfortable. In the summer, I had no idea how I would pay my bills, take care of my house, take care of everything. In the summer I wondered if I would ever be happy again.
And now here I am, almost six months later, half a year away. Yes, I am freezing my tush off, but I have heat, I have wood for the stove. I am learning each day how to keep up with my bill payments, how to try to keep my head above water. And in spite of all this, all these things that would have gotten me down in the past, I am happy, happier than I have ever been in my life. I am happy with someone – much happier than I was before I started this journal. I am where I am supposed to be.
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