My last husband would tell me that when I was in fight mode, taking on a cause, I was "putting my blue cape on." That was his expression that meant I was becoming my superpowered alter ego, Super Blue Cape Woman. Usually this meant that I was taking on too much, and maybe I should just take it easy, stop fighting the impossible fight. And I would back down, a bit, but never completely.
I'm older and more tired, but I still put the cape on, as I am now putting on the cape, taking on an impossible fight in my life. However, now having been drained by the experience of taking this all on myself, I now know how to enlist the help of others. I think I now have a new super powerful weapon – the net, which I cast out in all directions, to all resources. I learned this summer when you cast this net out far enough, you can get help in the least expected places. I haven't gotten that help yet, but that doesn't mean I am going to stop trying. I think because there are fewer and fewer super resources out there, I just need to keep casting further and further.
Thank goodness I'm Super Blue Cape Woman. Otherwise I don't think I'd have the stamina to sustain this fight.
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