Hanging On - To What?

I was a bit late to the game when it came to watching the movie Frozen. I had heard about the song "Let it Go" and wondered what it was about; whether it had anything to do with the kind of letting go that I need to do more of. And, after seeing the movie and hearing the song, I realized that, no, it didn't. The letting go was about being yourself, in spite of what others thought of you. I've been there already. This was nothing new.

The kind of letting go that I have such a hard time with is the kind that involves allowing things to happen in its own way, at its own pace. I find I am great at hanging on, not to people, but to thoughts and ideas. I review and re-review events in my mind, wondering what I could do or could have done better.

The zen side of me reminds me that what happened, happened, and it was supposed to teach me something. Did I listen? Did I open myself to the lesson?

Generally, though, the answer is no, I don't want to listen, and I don't want to learn. I want to move on to the next experience, shoving the previous lesson into my past before I can learn from it. I want to keep forging ahead, which is not a bad thing. The only problem is that I never let go of the last event, and, eventually it comes back and hits me in the head. And there I am, staggered by the blow, wondering what happened and/or why did it happen again.

My mantra should be let go, girl. Let go and let life happen and be open to something that will be much better than any type of situation I can create myself.