Trying to Remember: Things Happen When They Happen

I have a very bad habit of trying to control outcomes. There must be this part of me that thinks I know how things should turn out, and if I control the outcomes myself rather than leaving them up to the universe, they'll come out much better. And time and again, I am stuck with the consequences of trying to manipulate things, and I end up unhappy with the results.

I hope I have learned not to do this. I realized the other day that I wanted something to go a certain way, and was sad when it wasn't going the way I wanted it. I am so glad I stopped short and talked some sense into myself. Yes, I talk to myself. Usually, I don't talk sense. But this time, I took into account all the lessons I had learned from the past. And I said to myself "Wait. Just wait and see how this plays out. If it is meant to happen, it will. If it's not, you'll only make yourself miserable trying to make it happen."

So, I am waiting. And I am getting myself involved in those things that need my attention right here and now: my son, my pets, my job, my cleaning and organizing, etc.And I am enjoying what I have right now, and where I am. I don't know where I'm going. I'm not going to worry about that. I'm just going to focus on my now and let the future take care of itself.