Then, Again, Maybe It's Just the Snow

I've been dragging myself out of bed the past few days (or actually last two weeks.) I don't know what it is. I thought it was my birthday, with all my yearly concerns about getting older, and having regrets about some of the things I never did (or maybe didn't do right, like choosing my first husband instead of the other guy who was interested in me at the time.)

It could be the upcoming move that I've been talking about - needing to decide, once again, should I stay or should I go? Considering the pros and cons (pro - nicer place; con - having to move ALL my stuff!) And then there are the relationship issues that bubble to the surface every time I get to this decision. I always question - does he really want me in his life? Do I really want to be with him 24/7?

The job is up in the air right now, too. My group is going through a departmental change, getting new supervisors, and, possibly, new additions to our job responsibilities. I wish I could have been at the conference two weeks ago just to be certain of what is going on. This, I'll admit, is adding to the tension.

But, maybe it's none of the above. Maybe it's just the snow. I mean, come on - snow in April (and Easter has already come and gone!) I'm ready for this weather to move on out - I need some sun in my life, right now!