Wednesday, February 17, 2016

I Don't Care

I don't care. Those are the words that I say in response to something that might hurt, but, since I don't want it to hurt, I put these words up as a protective coat of armor. It puts distance between me and the issue.

It is a learned behavior. I don't care that you have other obligations. I don't care that you won't/can't spoil me the way I spoil you. I don't care that you suddenly have other plans. I don't care. Seriously, I don't care.

I am a big girl, and I will get past whatever is thrown at me. I will do whatever I can to deal with the changes. You can't spend time with me? Fine, then I will go out and spoil myself; allowing myself to surrender completely to retail therapy.

Life changes; I understand that. As an independent woman, I do not rely on you for my happiness. I have found my own happiness before, and I will do it again. I will continue to do it.

Have fun - I will be out buying frou frou products for myself, and enjoying a glass of wine. I will be happy, looking after my own needs. Don't be thinking about me. I won't care.

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