Dreams and Reality

Interesting dream last night, and I think I can connect it pretty well to what is going on in my life (or, at least, in my head!). In the dream,  I was at an improvisation camp (hmmm...camp where things are improvised? Sounds like my recent unconference!) We were given ideas for scenes, but when I looked around, no one else was jumping in to act, so I did first. My scenes weren't great - not even that funny - and many of the group noted that. But I told them that no one else was doing anything, and, anyway, isn't the point of improvisation to just, well, improvise?

I remember that I even made the connect to writing; that one generally wrote down then threw away a number of bad, or not-so-great attempts before having something good (maybe this was telling me to write more?) Anyway, the atmosphere was still upbeat and pleasant; people laughed and agreed with me. It definitely was not a negative experience.

And then, at the end of the dream, we were standing around in a dining room, where the waitstaff was setting up places. I noticed one table set up just for one person, apart from all the rest, and wondered if that was for me. I asked someone in charge where I would be sitting, and I remember them distinctly saying that "they were going to put me with this group (pointing to a table), but Pat (perhaps my former boss?) wanted me to work with this group (pointing to another table)." Neither was the single table, and the feeling that I had from the conversation was that "Pat" was putting me somewhere where I could lend my expertise.

Then I woke up. I really think the dream was significant for me - to accept the fact that change comes with practice, trial and error. And that I am more confident that I realized.