One month into this recent relationship, and things seem to be going fine.And I know I shouldn't rock the boat, but as we both continually talk about the importance of honesty and emotional intimacy in a relationship, I needed to put a difficult question on there.
You see, we were talking about dating, and relationships, and how a real relationship (one that continues to make both people happy) goes forward, and continues to be evaluated. People in the relationship need to question if this is what they really want, rather than entangle themselves in something that will cause unhappiness for both down the road.
And we have been talking this way - about the relationship as if it was a thing that was separate from us. The talk became, as Hamlet once stated, "Words, words,words." So I lay down a challenge. I stated my current feelings (that I feel more comfortable now than I ever had before with us.) Which others might say, why question; just go with it. But, no, I needed to know - did he feel the same way?
You see, this is very important to me. I want to be with someone who wants to be with me. Not just feels,"yeah, this is nice; I guess it's okay." No, I want someone who feels "wow, this is an incredible woman, and I don't want to let her go." Because I know I am funny, smart, caring, and otherwise incredible. If I am with someone who doesn't see that, then I want to move on to someone who will.
And I think that this could be here, if he would just verbalize it (I think there is some - well, possibly a lot of - fear on his part, because of being hurt in the past.) But he knows me well enough to know that I speak my mind and accept the consequences.
I just wish those consequences (one way or the other) would come already (I should note that we have been communicating during the week by writing, so I am waiting for a response.) Perhaps waiting is a kind way to delay the inevitable other shoe dropping.Or maybe it will serve as a way to make receiving the positive response that much sweeter.
And,so, an update: he wrote. And...yeah :)
